Looking back

Sometimes looking back can be such an eye opener. Here I sit rather absorbed in my life right now and it is so easy to forget where I came from and how I got to where I am. Sometimes it's good not to think about the past too much, I mean, you don't want to dwell on past mistakes since it's done and cannot be changed. I've been running into more and more people lately who are Torah observant as I seek fellowship and friends. Sometimes in my search I meet people who are suffering, struggling, or wrestling with their circumstances, people who want to know where Yahweh is in their trouble, and why isn't He helping them or answering their prayers? I try my best to give these people encouraging words or scriptures and relating to them in the best way I know how. One day recently I was thinking on a certain person I've been writing to and wondering how they ever got to be in such a dark place, nothing I can say makes this person feel better, all they can see is how terrible their circumstances are right now. I'm not even sure if I can relate to them because it is so far from where I am now. Something prompted me to browse my old journal and I discovered that about 6 years ago I was in a similar dark place! I was shocked at how some of my own writings looked so much like some of the correspondence I had received from my friend. As I read further I was amazed how over time Yahweh worked through me as I sought Him above worldly pursuits that tempted me and the peace He gave me to live my life as He was directing not as I wished. It seems so long ago now that I even had these feelings of anxiety, hopelessness, and no sense of direction. Yahweh was faithful! My life is not what I asked Him to make it in the sense of worldly desires and hopes but He has filled it with meaning and has helped me to live each day with a good attitude, contentment, and a servants heart. I'm so thankful for what Yahweh has done in my life. I would pray for everyone to find this same peace He has bestowed on my life...I truly believe that Yahweh can do this for anyone who seeks Him, no matter what the circumstance. Seek Him until you find!